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suspectclass) wrote2002-04-01 09:23 am
suspectclass) wrote2002-04-01 09:23 am
You're so good at analysis, why can't you see what I do?
My ex girlfriend sent her condolences through Holly this weekend.
Strangely enough, I think she meant it.
She was very much involved with the insanity of last Semester. Slut Boi, her and another former friend stalking Holly and breaking into her email accounts. Strangely enough, I don't really harbor much anger towards her. I know many things she said about me that normally would make me hold a grudge, and I'm sure there are many things she said that Holly is far too tactful to repeat to me, since it wouldn't change anything except make me feel all the more foolish for ever having considered my ex a friend. When I think about last spring and how both she and I are giving the people who we were trying to get over a second chance, I realize how lucky I am, and it makes me sad for her. Of all the things that happened last year, there were plenty of lines that Holly and I never crossed with each other, and certainly we never went behind each other's backs. In being with Holly I am not denying or ignoring my core beliefs, and I do not have to sacrifice my friends or my self-respect. Somewhere in there, despite all the things she's done and said, despite the manipulation, back-biting, stalking and bad mouthing, I know there's a good person. I just hope some day she's strong enough to let it show.
Strangely enough, I think she meant it.
She was very much involved with the insanity of last Semester. Slut Boi, her and another former friend stalking Holly and breaking into her email accounts. Strangely enough, I don't really harbor much anger towards her. I know many things she said about me that normally would make me hold a grudge, and I'm sure there are many things she said that Holly is far too tactful to repeat to me, since it wouldn't change anything except make me feel all the more foolish for ever having considered my ex a friend. When I think about last spring and how both she and I are giving the people who we were trying to get over a second chance, I realize how lucky I am, and it makes me sad for her. Of all the things that happened last year, there were plenty of lines that Holly and I never crossed with each other, and certainly we never went behind each other's backs. In being with Holly I am not denying or ignoring my core beliefs, and I do not have to sacrifice my friends or my self-respect. Somewhere in there, despite all the things she's done and said, despite the manipulation, back-biting, stalking and bad mouthing, I know there's a good person. I just hope some day she's strong enough to let it show.