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My stepmom's in the hospital. Again.

She's really sick.

And here I am worried that I'll have to skip Smith this weekend and fly out there.

I want Holly to meet her, and I want her to get better and I want to not have all this bad shit between us but I don't know if any of that will happen or how to make it so.

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[24k.livejournal.com]

i hope things get better. ::HUG::

[artartart.livejournal.com]

Hang in there.

[freakysparks.livejournal.com]

::hug::

[izzybelly.livejournal.com]

"And here I am worried that I'll have to skip Smith this weekend and fly out there."

Don't let yourself feel guilty because you're not sick. When my aunt was really ill, i worried about how it would affect my plans too, and i felt guilty about thinking that. i knew my plans weren't as important, but i thought about it anyway. don't let yourself feel guilty for your feelings. that's all i have to say, and sorry if it seems irrelevent to you. its just my little advice.
hopefully i'll see you soon.

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

:-) Thanks Is. Hey, we should get together or something.

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[izzybelly.livejournal.com]

lunch tomorrow?

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

sure!

Yay!

when?

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[izzybelly.livejournal.com]

hmmm...tomorrow's art's fest so i'm pretty free. i think the only workshop i want to go to ends at..11:20. i can't stand to go to "jewish crafts" sponsored by JSA. so yeah, anytime after that.

i'm missing a point on my star

[eveandodd.livejournal.com]

Ahh, dreidle making.

::thinks about other jewish crafts::

oil lamps?

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[izzybelly.livejournal.com]

I don't know, but i'm scared of JSA members, and i am so uncrafty i might get a stroke if forced to decorate menoras.

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

ooho! cool. yeah! Let's hang out!

I'm going call your CELL and leave you a MESSAGE!

Sarah

[izzybelly.livejournal.com]

I couln't hear your message!! sorry...when where? email me! :)

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

eek!
at imsa?
bah

[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

my advice(for what it's worth):
let things go. be the grown up one. decide what's really important, and forget the stuff that's not.

i love you. i hope i see you this weekend. let me know if you're not going. i'm all coldy and won't go if you won't be there.

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

I've been the "grown up one" for a long time. And hey! If no one else wants to protect you, you get to do it yourself. Whatever. They (my parent-types...all four) are a bunch of idiots sometimes. I mean, I feel like I, at 20, know better how to act in personal relationships than they do.

Whatever.

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

i know you're the grown up one. i just don't want you to forget it. all i meant was that you might have to decided that some things that are between you aren't worth fighting about, even if she's not ready to let them go.

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

It's not like that. I'm prepared to let it go...on my own. I'm prepared to forgive her. I'm *not* prepared to let the stuff with my *mom* go.

Cuz hey, she's still here.

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

that's fair.
but just to play devil's advcate.... why does it take a life threatening illness to make you get over some things sooner?

[eveandodd.livejournal.com]

Because you get to pretend that the problem will disappear over time, not the person.

[eveandodd.livejournal.com]

^otherwise

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

Because some things are not forgiveable in a healthy person.

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

you're right.
my point: why wait for things to get better over time, if you can make them better now?
easier said than done

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

::sigh:: I know you mean well, but it's not that simple. It never is, and anyway, you know about my family.

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

i know. i understand. i'm just talking.

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

::hug:: I know.

This weekend!

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

god, what am i going to wear? =p