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My stepmom's in the hospital. Again.

She's really sick.

And here I am worried that I'll have to skip Smith this weekend and fly out there.

I want Holly to meet her, and I want her to get better and I want to not have all this bad shit between us but I don't know if any of that will happen or how to make it so.

Comments

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

i know you're the grown up one. i just don't want you to forget it. all i meant was that you might have to decided that some things that are between you aren't worth fighting about, even if she's not ready to let them go.

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

It's not like that. I'm prepared to let it go...on my own. I'm prepared to forgive her. I'm *not* prepared to let the stuff with my *mom* go.

Cuz hey, she's still here.

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

that's fair.
but just to play devil's advcate.... why does it take a life threatening illness to make you get over some things sooner?

[eveandodd.livejournal.com]

Because you get to pretend that the problem will disappear over time, not the person.

[eveandodd.livejournal.com]

^otherwise

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

Because some things are not forgiveable in a healthy person.

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

you're right.
my point: why wait for things to get better over time, if you can make them better now?
easier said than done

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

::sigh:: I know you mean well, but it's not that simple. It never is, and anyway, you know about my family.

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

i know. i understand. i'm just talking.

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[masscooper.livejournal.com]

::hug:: I know.

This weekend!

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[chimneychild.livejournal.com]

god, what am i going to wear? =p