Lawsy

It's so strange to be so happy in my relationship and yet to be thinking about how much I want to change my life next year. I'm realizing just how relationship-oriented I am, and how that's not really where I need to be right now. I'm so happy with the engineer, I mean, I haven't been able to sustain a bad mood (outside of when we've fought) since getting back to town. It just keeps getting better, too. The more I know her the more I want to know her. The closer we get, the more I want to see and show. I have absolutely no time ever, for anything (and neither does she), but we make time because there's nothing like lying in bed watching stupid reruns with her. Or doing anything else with her, for that matter. All the same, I'm realizing that I want to leave. I want to go to Germany, or failing that, get a job that will allow me to spend several months a year as a ski-bum of some sort. Even better: a ski bum in Germany or Austria. Life would be sweet.

Of course, none of this makes me want to study for my Geo exam Friday, but I must, as I can no longer make it pass-fail. Sorry GPA. I didn't mean to hurt you baby, I just have so much on my mind. I'd say it'll get better, but it's been a struggle from the beginning. Maybe we just weren't meant to be.

In other news, Connie's going to be my snowboard buddy this year. this weekend may feature us going to look at gear. She'll be shopping, I'll be drooling (with my creditcard left at home, most likely). I wore my snow jacket today and it still has my lift ticket from Febrary on it. It was a sweet sweet reminder and made the smell of winter in the air all the more tantalizing. Plus, my Title 9 catalog came today and now I just can't fucking wait. Oh snow. Oh snow.