For the rest of my life

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Hey, guess what? I have some really fabulous people in my life. I have friends that I always want to know, the kind of people you'd love to see every day, but who you'll still be friends with even if you don't talk to for 6 months. The phrase "I'm here if you need me" is not one I say to a lot of people, because frankly there aren't a lot of people I'd be willing to talk to at 3 in the morning if they were stranded in the middle of nowhere (hypothetically speaking). Except it turns out there are. I don't think I often tell these people how I feel, and I think that's a mistake. So I'm trying to be more open with my friends, not to hold them so much at arms length, to trust that at least the ones who have been around for a while and been there for me when I need them really are sticking around. Chances are, if you've been friends with me and cared about me since my first year, you've seen me at some fairly low points and through some fairly big changes. If you're still here, the least I can do is show you how much I care. After pouring so much into one relationship (which I don't in the least regret), I've realized that there are a lot of people in my life who've been around longer than any romance I've had. I don't know when I'll find a lover I want to be with forever, least of all when I can actually make that work, but I do have friends who fit that bill and they deserve more of my attention than they've been getting. So to the people who've been there, whether it's the last couple years or half my life, whether you read this or not, thanks.