Where's your head at girl?

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I think Freud, or whoever it was that said that when you mishear someone it says more about what you want to hear than anything else, was right. J-Dub says Theology, I hear Divinity. The fact that I think of them as so similar is interesting, because either way you spend your life trying to figure out what God wants, but they're still very different. I think there's an argument to be made to the effect that I wanted her to say Divinity School because I wanted to be forced to think about what that would mean. I do get envious that my protestant friends, especially those who are UCC have more options in their denominations than I do in mine. I can't even have my romantic relationship honored let alone a vocation to ministry. Not that I resent them for it, but it does emphasize my feelings of exclusion in the Catholic Church. I don't know that I want to be a minister or priest, but I do know that in my church I can't explore that option, and that really hurts. You'd think I'd be used to it by now, but the pain is still raw. Maybe I'll get over it, but I know I'll never have an easy or simple relationship to the Church. It's just not a possibility. Mph. Not to say that anyone has a "simple" relationship to their faith. Bah. I'm just pissed and upset about all of this. Take it in the spirit it's meant.