I Love Bieng a Girl

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Listening to the Eurythmics Greatest Hits. I really need to get cracking on working on my presentation. Final touches, making sure I'm not leaving anything vital out, looking busy so that my boss doesn't give me more to do.

I'm looking terribly spiffy today, which in straight people land always serves to remind me of how QUEER I am. Shiny black doc three hole shoes, black dress socks (duh), black chinos, my new gray with white diagonal stripes button down from Structure. I look hot, and I can think of quite few women I know who would tell me in no uncertain terms how good I look. Here, however, no one says anything. This is not because they are the type of people who ignore things like clothes, I think that it's just so foreign to so many people. kathrot posts about her cute outfits, and I think of how much fun I would have going out to coffee with her looking all fabulous, how much I love having a cute femme (even if it's just that day's gender incarnation) with me-not even in a romantic sense. I love having feminine friends who flirt with me and let me be a gentleman. I miss that more than almost anything about Smith-outside of being in college. I love being allowed to treat the women around me the way they deserve. I hate feeling like I can't look at the girls on the bus, that any attempt at being a gentleman is shot down when the men around me call me "miss" and hold the door. Sure, I appreciate politeness, it's better than the occasional poisonous look I get when someone figures out what's up. Still, I feel so invisible and useless.

Comments

[freakysparks.livejournal.com]

I understand.
One advantage of checking out girls on the bus: they probably won't notice as they won't be expecting it.
And the thing about being invisible in a corporate place, for me, is that when I do see a young lady who is looking me over, I appreciate it all the more, because it is so rare. Yesterday I got clocked by another platinum blonde, but this one was carefully dressed in very tasteful skirt and boots, complete with look of perpetual disdain (which for some reason always appeals to me.) She looked at me and her eyes just twinkled so I found a very TBH-like wolfish grin across my face as I checked her out.

[masscooper.livejournal.com]

Yeah, those moments are definitly great. Yay for wolfish grins.

[eveandodd.livejournal.com]

You make the girls sparkle.
They all want a boi toy.

I can see power in lechery, Darcy and I were making eyes at pedestrians yesterday (watch the road) and people got nervous.
But there's a lot to be said for femme power. $$ says the blonde knows she's got it.

[masscooper.livejournal.com]

But there's a lot to be said for femme power.

Hells yeah. My loving getting attention from pretty girls is all about the femme power. Looks from baby butches make me feel like a stud, but pretty girls make me all giggly and blushy.

[eveandodd.livejournal.com]

It is SUCH FUN to make you blush.

And you're so good at it, too

[masscooper.livejournal.com]

Well, in a mere 8 days you'll get to. ::grin::

[kathrot.livejournal.com]

heh.
having been on the "tasteful skirt and boots" end of that interaction, i can tell ya it's ridiculously fun, flattering, and all around pleasant.
you know you made her day.